It has been way too long…..

It has been so long since I have been on here….I don’t know what to say. I have definitely been sucking at this weight loss/healthy living business. There have been some major downs the last few months and lots of eating out. I haven’t weighed myself in months but by the way my clothes fit I can tell I have gained a little back. I am not as comfortable with my body and sometines its hard to explain to people why.  I have gotten back into the gym but I need to start meal prepping again.
No one tells you how hard this process is. No one realizes what a struggle this is. I love how people on the outside can just be like lose weight, workout, stop eating so much……seriously?! Let me hit you with my shoe and then maybe I can explain how it’s not as easy as that. If I ate just when I was hungry I would only eat once a day. That is not my problem. My problem is when I’m bored or having some kind of emotion (apparently any kind of feeler will work), usually at night, I eat to fill a void of some sort. Soooo don’t act like it’s as easy as just stop eating. Everyone has something they have to work through and I know this is my lot in life but I really wish people could see what others are going through. Honestly, we are all fighting some kind of battle. We should be nicer and more supportive of each other. I have several friends who are working through weight issues and I try to be so supportive and excited for them. Even when things aren’t going well, I try to be there for them because I know this struggle. I know I could have it so much worse and I am so thankful for what I have and what I have accomplished.
I was doing so well and then i wasn’t. There are days, especially when clothes feel tight or my body feels extra “bloated” that I feel like such a failure. I know that I am not though. I have come so far. I have seen the amazing things my body can do. I have seen and felt my body work hard and overcome the thoughts in my head telling me I couldn’t go on. Those thoughts were lies. I can go on. I will do this. I know there are ups and downs in this process and I cannot and will not give up. I am going to try and keep up with this blog again. I loved it before and I loved all the support I gave and recieved. I cannot wait to see what everyone has been up too. 🙂

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